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Writer's pictureHuijun Chen

Tree-Hole: Voice from Zsure

Actually, I'm intending to go home.

I used to go back home about once a year because I usually had about a month's holiday each year. In normal times, yes, I could go straight back and stay for most of the month, but now it takes about half a month to go back just for the quarantine and I don't have enough time so I haven't been home for the last two years. I'm actually a bit homesick and I'm planning to go back. I thought about working here, but I decided to go back after consideration.


Because I'm an only child and the only boy in my family, so if I stay here I'm bound to be separated from my parents for a very long time. It''s hard to just focus on myself like I did when I was in my early 20s. I have to think about family now, for example, if I go back to work I will be closer to my parents and I can spend more time with them, and I also have the responsibility for a family as a man.


At this age I can't think as selfishly as I did before when I was younger. Family is one of the reasons, being an only child is another reason, for example if I had a younger sibling I would probably have a completely different opinion.

其实还是打算回家的。


你之前大概一年回一次,然后也在这边到了好几年了,因为我平常一年大概有一个月假期。在平常的时候是的可以直接回去,然后带上个大半个月。但是现在回去光单单是隔离的话就要隔离半个月左右了,半个多月其实是没有充足的时间回去,基本上回去的话也就坐在隔离了,所以说这两年就没有回去。所以说其实是有一点想家的,然后打算是回去之前也有想过在这边工作,但是后来综合考虑之下还是打算回去。


因为我是独生子,家里只有我一个男孩,所以说如果说留在这边的话,你势必要很长时间跟父母分开。



而且像包括之前经历的一些事情,你知道我现在其实很难做到,我比如说像20岁出头的样子,什么都不顾,只专注于自己的事情就好了,其实现在是很难做的,那必然考虑事情的时候也会有更多的家庭因素放在里面。比如说要回去工作的话,第一比如说可能在加强工作,然后离父母近一点,然后可以经常回去陪陪他们。然后也有比如说你作为一个男生,你也有成交的这种责任在。


所以说而且在这个年龄段来说,你不可能像之前非常年轻的时候,去只管自己的舒适不舒适,当然现在这个时候肯定不能特别自私的去考虑自己。所以说其实家庭包括自己的独生子女的话,其实也是个原因,当然比如说如果我有一个什么弟弟妹妹,我可能就会完全不同的一个想法


I've been abroad for almost 5 years now. I didn't feel much when I was at home, I just went back once a year to spend time with my family.However, the last time I was home, an elderly member of our family was still alive, but he passed away after I came back to the UK. There was nothing I could do while I heard such sad news nor could I go back. I spent little time with him, so I was devastated at the time and even doubted whether I had made the right decision in leaving, as I had been raised by him and he was fine when I was at home.




出国的话。总共也差不多5年了。说最后一次离开是从国内过来的时候,其实还是挺有感触的。在家的时候其实并没有感觉到什么,也就每每年回去一趟这个样子,然后陪着家人玩一玩,就大概这个样子


但是对我来说影响比较大的。我上一次在家的时候,我的一位我们家的一位老人他还健在,然后因为有一些特殊的原因,就是在我来回到英国之后,他去世了,本身陪伴老人的生活就很少,然后在听到这样的一个非常不幸的消息,在这边又无能为力,也很多时候也不能回去,所以说其实是挺崩溃的,那个时候是挺崩溃的。而且也会怀疑当初这个决定的是否正确,因为毕竟你在家的时候他还好好的正常,然后你来之后可能比如说两个月三个月,然后他就迅速的你从阴阳两个,其实从内心来说是非常难接受的,而且毕竟是从小养大的,这个也是非常深的感情,所以说在地点上确实是既有深的一种

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